winter
feeling blue the last 2 days and I know it.
Not trying to get out of it, not trying to get “better”.
Instead, I’m combing through my music library, dialing all the songs that delve into it, delve into me…even more! call it emo, call it what you want…but that’s how i AM feeling right now…and ya know, it’s BEAUTIFUL.
When did we all sign on to feel good, be happy, and cheery all the damn time? it’s futile. And more, it makes you feel crazy when you are not these ALL THE TIME.
I was asked, “Do you ever get lonely?”. “Yes, I get lonely…and I get sad, and I get happy, and horny, and (fill in the blank)”. That’s what we do, we ARE all these things from one moment to the next. And thank god. How boring would it be to be just one thing all the time?
I’m a little heartsick, a little emotional, a little melancholy today…so look out world, I’m playing Tori and looking out the window with yearning. Yea, I said it. I’m owning this just as proudly as I’d own anything more cheery.
“There’s a certain beauty in the sadness, melancholy”. -Sarah McLachlan
(I think about this quote often).
